"Take Risks To Find Things."

Thomas today! A relief really as classes with Philippe have been a bit scary for me lately. I think I feel safer to fail with Thomas than I do with Philippe.

I dressed more as my Bro character today. This morning I went and got some brown make-up, although it turned out to be red. So I ended up looking like a sunburned dude with a huge black afro. Oh well.

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Today's scenario: Break-up dinner at a restaurant.

The idea is that one character breaks up with the other, and then they react to this ("I want to see you explode") in a myriad of ways. With one sentence yo can make a whole scene...being sad, being happy, being angry, being perplexed... "It's about the pleasure to show many reactions."

I went up first as a waiter (the save-the-show guy), and then in a couple with Austrian Thomas. As waiter I was heavy and loud - trying to shift up the scene - but didn't really calculate as well as I could have. And then in then with Thomas, I tried to improvise text getting to the break up moment, but I didn't really ever earn the love of the audience (Thomas is nice and let's us keep on going even if it's bad...(is this nice?)) and so when I tried to go to the exploding into many different reactions part it didn't work.

"Find actions. Otherwise it's just bla bla bla...You need to find a game."

Thomas (the teacher) then helped me feel this a bit. He got Austrian Thomas to blow me kisses, and for me to look away towards the window behind me. This simple action created some kind of game that we could then play - that wasn't reliant on text. I was lighter here immediately. Not trying to do much at all. Just being on stage with Thomas (remember this). It felt more inviting for an audience too. So how can I get to this state again in my work? Because I'm getting fed up with this constant heaviness and pushing. I need to use this workshop to really discover lightness.

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"If you feel it starts to fall down you have to change rhythm."

"We're waiting for something and we don't receive it."

"Don't play the cliché. Just have fun wearing the costume."

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Thomas encouraged us to just get up and try today. "Take risks to find things." This is how I should always approach the work! But it's not that easy.